Doing the Right Thing

This weekend I began a journey that I have:

1.  Started and stopped twice

2. Gave up on and said I wasn’t doing it (actually said, “I’m good on this FOREVER!”)

3. Messed it up and thought it was unredeemable

4. Thought it was not for me and ignored and sabotaged it

This time I have a heads up on the pitfalls.  This time I am serious, this is do or die (I was told to “Piss or get off the pot).  I am excited!! I am praying about this and trying to make the right choices and moves. So far so good, one small hurdle but working on that.  This is something I really want, need, and desire to manifest.  It’s frustrating when God gives or shows you something and it doesn’t manifest.  Most of the time is because we move out of season, don’t get the total plan from Him, or just want to do it our way.  Well, I found that none of that works. It just breeds failure, disappointment, sin, and discouragement.

I finally realized that this part of my life is necessary.  I need this to move forward.  This is a reward and not a punishment.  It is beneficial.  I know it is going to cost me something, but I am more than willing for the sacrifice.  Really it’s worth it.  Everything connected to me is hinged on this coming to fruition.

I am not telling ANYONE what this is…till everything is concrete…till the fruit is evident…till the foundation is set…till I feel like it.  So, don’t ask, just watch and wait.  You’ll know soon enough.