Words to Live By…

I read this last night and I thought it would be useful…

The most selfish 1 letter: I
Avoid it.

Most satisfactory 2 letters: WE
Use it.

Most poisonous 3 letters: EGO
Kill it.

Most used 4 letters: LOVE
Value it.

Most pleasing 5 letters: SMILE
Keep it.

Fastest spreading 6 letters: RUMORS
Ignore it.

Most coveted 7 letters: SUCCESS
Achieve it.

Most enviable 8 letters: JEALOUSY
Distance it.

Most essential 9 letters: PRINCIPLE
Have it.

Most divine 10 letters: FRIENDSHIP
Maintain it.

There’s Still Hope For the Hopeless…

Yesterday was a difficult day for me. Several weeks ago I woke up to an intruder in the house and yesterday was to be the day that I gave my Grand Jury testimony. I went through a cadre of emotions before and after arriving at the Prosecutor’s Office. Needless to say the end result was not one that I anticipated. I got there to be informed that I had been mistakenly contacted, there was no need for my testimony. They had already decided not to pursue the burglary or possibly the criminal trespass charges. They are only seeking to pursue the drug charge. Well, as I sat there in tears listening to this man tell me that my story although it may be the truth was just my word against the perpetrator’s and they didn’t have much of a case at all, the feelings that I had buried that night resurfaced. I politely put on my coat and hat and walked out the office with the man still talking to my back. He had the nerve to express he apologizes, he understood my concerns but the law was the law and there was nothing they could do.

I had asked about a protection order or something to safeguard me if this guy was to ever show up again. After a phone call I was told that there had to be a pattern and there was none so there was nothing they could do there either. That was the straw that lead to me walking out of the office. Well, I am determined not to let this thing die. I made a trip to City Hall and made some contacts that got me a few more answers and things are making more sense.  I found out today that the same cops who wanted to let the nut go that night also wrote a report that contradicts my statement and the things I told them that night. So, now I am waiting on a call from the detective handling the case.  I have several phone calls to make tomorrow, this is far from over. My concern is I have no idea why this man choose my house. I don’t know if I was targeted or what.

I have worn the brave face for weeks, laughed at the jokes everyone has cracked to ease my discomfort but most people don’t know that it took me two weeks to even sleep in my room. Now, that I am sleeping in my room I sleep with a baseball bat near my bed or in it. I wake up several times during the night, some nights I go back to sleep some nights I don’t. Out of sheer desperation a couple nights I have taken something to help me sleep.

As I typed this I got some insight. I asked God for a little help on this and I got this…

This is not the time for giving up, this is not your place where you should be,
Not the time or the place to lie in defeat, you got to hold on, you got be strong.

The one thing I have been trying not to think about was what could have happened but didn’t and this is what My GREAT God had to say about that…

There were dangers awaiting me, destruction was sure to be
But thank God for Angels that were shielding and protecting
And looking out for me, thank You Lord

The Devil had a plan to kill me, I know
But God intercepted his plan and told the devil, no
God blocked it, He wouldn’t let it be so
No, He wouldn’t let it be so

So, what can I say…How can I expect to win if I give up now? My prayer right now is for strength. I can and will make it through this, I can smell VICTORY. I will be sleeping tonight in perfect peace. I claim that with everything in me.

Does It Really Matter…

1) That I treat most like I expect them to treat me and never have it reciprocated. Yet I still treat you the same.

2) Most men I meet tell me I am this “Awesome Catch” and they can’t understand why I am not married.  Most days I wonder the same.

3) I fuss and fuss around the house, yet nothing gets done till I go “T” totally off. This happens at least once a week.

4) The thing I hate to do most is my greatest achievement. The thing I love and want to do most is failing miserably.

5) I work hard and sacrifice for you to have things and yet you won’t clean your room.

6) That I am a bit uneasy about going to court and seeing the man who climbed in my window. Nobody is going with me, nor are they concerned.

7) That I am writing and posting this. No one even reads this stuff.

A Difference of Opinion

Hey You Guys!!!!!!!  Yeah, yeah, I know I have been very absent, sorry bad Cice.  But, I had to post today I need to hear some of you alls thoughts on this conversation I had last night.  I had a very intense conversation last night with someone and it had me thinking well into the night…

This particular young lady was talking about marrying her boyfriend. Currently they attend the same church, but she is not satisfied with that church.  She feels like she isn’t growing there and she is leaving. She stated that she no longer believes they were not teaching sound doctrine.  Well, boyfriend likes the church and has no plans to leave. She made the comment that they would just be attending different churches, it doesn’t matter she was leaving anyway. That bothered me. So, I asked her  didn’t she think it would be difficult for them to function that way. She didn’t think so. But, I my mind all I could hear over and over was “One Flesh”. I asked her then, “How can two walk except they agree (Amos 3:3).”  Her argument was that then that should be in everything they do. That they are out of agreement if they work at two different places. I just stopped talking and let her continue with this odd argument.  At least to me it was odd.

Genesis 2:24 says to us that God created man and woman to become “one flesh” when they marry, not two separate beings who go their own separate ways. I was taught that the marriage covenant between a man and a woman is symbolic of the covenant between Christ and those for whom He died. And that this covenant is holy and sacred, just as marriage is to be holy, sacred and unbroken. Shouldn’t a a husband and wife be of one mind regarding the basic doctrines of Christianity – God, Christ, sin, salvation, heaven/hell, etc? Maybe I am confused.  That is why I am writing this today…what do you think?

Wow!!!

Yes, I know I have been away for quite some time…. There is so much I need to catch you up on. So, stay posted… I’ll be back and running on Monday. See Ya Soon!!!!